— This is a little bit of a rant —
I recently took the Myer-Briggs test and got ENFP: Extroverted iNtuitive, Feeling, Perceiving. Aka I have extroverted intuition with introverted feeling (I’m extroverted but need regular alone time to re-align myself).
I’m not sure to what extent this is true.
But I know I’ve been wanting a time of solitude (a time away from this world and from people, so that I can refresh myself). Yet I’ve found myself unable to have this – unable to not depend on people for emotional fulfilment. So what started as solitude turned to loneliness and isolation.
I know solitude is good, in that I don’t need to depend on others to be happy. But I feel like I am happy when I am around others, and I am re-charged when I’m not alone. Because when I’m alone, I feel empty.
I guess that I need to accept that I am never really alone. Until then, the question I ask is: is there something I’m doing wrong (something that’s wrong with my mindset), or is this the way I was created to be?