Words have power. It’s a cliched idea, but words can speak life and they can speak death. They can hurt or they can uplift. They can bruise or they can heal. 

This week, God has been calling me to pay more attention to the words that I speak. I would say that on the whole, I am not a terribly mean person – granted, I have been mean to people countless times before, but have at least improved in the sense that my words are not said with ill intentions or to hurt people. But there is still a long way to go, and God is calling me to pay attention to the following areas: 

1. Words of sarcasm: I can tend to be exceedingly sarcastic at times. Sometimes it’s through jokes, while other times, I just get impatient and the sarcasm in me comes out. While sarcasm is not intrinsically bad, I believe that some sarcasm has roots in bitterness and anger. This is not good. Other times, sarcasm can just hurt people even though I may not know it and they may not say it. 

2. Words I speak to those closest to me: I think this is true for everybody, but I tend to less carefully choose my words when it comes to immediate family and my close friends. While I love these people so much and try to speak words of love, the angry and harsh words I may speak have the potential for more hurt to them than if I spoke these to a stranger. Proverbs 15:1 says, “A gentle answer turns away wrath, but a harsh word stirs up anger.”

3. Useless words: These words come when my mind is running non-stop or when I am just in a weird mood. Usually these words end up being jokes I make (usually terrible jokes!) or even silly stories I tell about my life or my day. None of this is terrible in itself, but these words can be pointless and at worst, selfish. I have to remember that there is a time to speak and there is a time to listen, and that time I spend talking aimlessly could have been a moment for someone to share with me their story. 

Today, I pray for a spirit of gentleness and wisdom when it comes to my words. I pray that the words I speak build others up instead of tearing them down. I pray that I can be a better listener.


overflowing peace 

Because I am generally an anxious person/someone who struggles with worrying too much, I can go through periods of time during which I do not truly feel God’s peace. Most of the time, it is my own doing; I get so easily caught up in my thoughts about situations, especially when these thoughts race a hundred miles a minute, that I forget about the bigger picture and lose perspective. I am sure I’m not the only one who feels that way. 

While this can be frustrating (and while I want to remain at peace instead of going in and out of it), I have learned to savor even more the peace and serenity that Christ and His love offer me. It is the moments of being so abundantly filled with His love and just basking in the knowledge that there is nothing that can separate me from Him, these moments, that carry me through. These moments of being Spirit-filled inspire me to overflow and pour out onto others. 

I am so thankful for these moments.  


In Genesis 1, which talks about God’s creation of this world, there is one theme that is held constant in His creation: goodness. Throughout the chapter (Genesis 1: 3, 10, 12, and so on), we hear: “He saw that it was good.” This is the first instance of the idea of goodness in the Bible, or an idea that implies right and wrong. So we read this chapter, we see goodness. And we see that this goodness comes from God. Therefore, we are introduced to one of the first mentioned character traits of God: His goodness.

This idea that God (and His will, plans, and Word) is good is one of the most integral foundations of our faith, and is one that keeps coming back to my mind and heart as I meditate on God’s world. But this idea can often be one of the first that is challenged. We can see this in Genesis 3, when the serpent tempts Eve.

Genesis 3:6 says, “So when the woman saw that the tree was good for food, and that it was a delight to the eyes, and that the tree was desired to make one wise, she took of its fruit and ate.

The moment Eve took of the fruit and ate it, sin entered the world. But what’s interesting, as one Desiring God devotional reminds us, is that Eve did not question what is and is not good. She did not have any ill intentions, or a desire to do what was wrong in God’s eyes. Instead, she fell for the idea that there can be good from a source other than God. This idea is a deception that is still present today. So often, we see something that looks good (and is likely intrinsically good), and we try to get it without God.

So I ask, what good things in this world are you desiring right now? Maybe you desire money, a relationship, marriage? These are all good things in and of themselves. The question is: are you seeking these right now, when know that they are not God’s will for you?



“corpse bride”

I just started watching the movie “Corpse Bride,” which I heard about at a retreat this past weekend. The movie is about a bride who is literally a corpse, dead, even though she still has a certain sort of beauty to her. This bride has to marry a groom, but the catch is: he is alive while she is not. Anyway [Spoiler Alert], the movie goes on to reveal that the groom is willing to die and actually ends up dying for this corpse bride.

This is the story of Christ and His own bride, the Church.

We are Christ’s bride. We are beautiful, but we were once “corpse brides” ourselves, dead due to our sin and living in a fallen world with no hope and freedom. Jesus is the groom who died for us so that we could be united with Him. He had no reason to die, for He was whole and alive, but He did it out of love for us. He died so that instead of being corpse brides, we could be alive and set free.

Honestly, the idea of the corpse bride can be a hard one to accept. A lot of times, we don’t want to admit that we are dead. We don’t want to admit that we are in torment, and that we have to rely on someone else to make us whole and beautiful.

The reality is: even when we accept Jesus into our lives, there are still areas of our lives in which may be dead. And even though our groom died for us in order to bring these areas to life, we often choose to remain in that state of brokenness and despair. We either love the darkness or we are so afraid of the light that we stay in this darkness. We grow so accustomed to being dead and broken that we don’t see that life is right in front of us – that all we have to do is take it.

Today, I pray that the Church chooses life in all areas of our hearts and minds. I pray that we recognize our brokenness, and instead of being ashamed or even proud, that we accept the sacrifice the groom made for us. God doesn’t want a corpse bride. Because as beautiful as she may seem in her lifeless state, this beauty pales in comparison to a bride who is alive, joyful, and free.



I recently heard the most interesting message about adultery – not literal (aka cheating on your spouse with another person) adultery with others, but adultery against God.

The passage of focus was 1 Thessalonians 4:1-8. The messenger that day started by talking about the movement of different ideas and thoughts through us – how something first sits with us and where it ends up as we get closer to and more intimate with it. This journey, he highlighted, is as follows: 1) the mind (“a stranger”), 2) the heart (“a friend”), and 3) the belly (“a spouse”).

Proverbs 20:27 says, “The spirit of man is the candle of the Lord, searching all the inward parts of the belly” (KJV).

So basically, where the Spirit resides, where ideas and thoughts are the most intimate are in the belly. Idols come into play, then, when we allow those things of the world – entertainment, people, ideas – come through our mind, through our heart, and into our spirit. We go from treating these idols as strangers, then as friends, and then finally as spouses. And that’s when we enter the realm of adultery against God.

Today, I ask myself the following questions: am I being adulterous with God? Am I allowing intimacy with idols instead of intimacy with the Spirit? Am I being intimate with the world? The answer to all of these is yes. But I cannot fix this on my own. Psalm 119:9 says,  “How can a young person stay on the path of purity? By living according to your word.”

God’s word, not our own will, sanctified us. It redeems us from adultery.

God does not give us these warnings against sexual immorality, against adultery, lightly. The sobering reality can be seen in the story of David. After David sleeps with Bathsheba, one of his advisors, Nathan, confronts him. David repents, and Nathan tells him he is forgiven. He says, “The Lord has taken away your sin. You are not going to die.” However, he goes on to say, “But because by doing this you have shown utter contempt for the Lord, the son born to you will die.”

The reality is that showing contempt for the Lord, being intimate with this world, has its consequences. The Lord is merciful and takes away our sin and saves us from death. But sometimes there are consequences that we have to face in the aftermath.

I pray today that I can understand the grave nature of adultery against God. I pray that He gives me the strength to live according to His word – because I cannot do it on my own.

the new colossus

I pray for all refugees, all homeless, all the huddled masses yearning to breathe free. I pray for the tired and the hopeless, and those that, in thinking they could find a friend, were turned away. 

“‘Keep ancient lands, your storied pomp!’ cries she

With silent lips. ‘Give me your tired, your poor,

Your huddled masses yearning to breathe free,

The wretched refuse of your teeming shore.

Send these, the homeless, tempest-tost to me,

I lift my lamp beside the golden door!'”

beloved ~ be loved 

We spend a lot of time at church learning to: 1) love God and 2) love others. 

These are very important, but yesterday at church, I recently heard a message about loving yourself – being loved. As cliched as it is, I don’t often hear it in the church, and so it resonated with me. There is so much self-hatred in this world: low self-esteem causes us to think we’re useless and worthless, physical and mental illness can cause us to think we’re broken or “crazy,” our flaws and what other people say about us, when taken to heart, hurts us and makes us feel unloved, and our past sins put us to shame. 

Ephesians 1:4-6 says, “According as he hath chosen us in him before the foundation of the world, that we should be holy and without blame before him in love: Having predestinated us unto the adoption of children by Jesus Christ to himself, according to the good pleasure of his will, To the praise of the glory of his grace, wherein he hath made us accepted in the beloved.”  

Too often, we let hurt from this world to close our hearts and hide from God. But really, God sent us his own beloved so that we could truly be loved. So instead of closing ourselves off from Him, we need to allow ourselves to just be loved by Him. Being unconditionally loved frees us from the hurtful words of others; it lets us remember that God is good; it takes away our shame and our fear. And inadvertently, if we let ourselves be loved, we are then put in the best place to love God [He first loved us] and then love others like He has called us to do. 

My prayer today is to love myself and to allow myself to be loved. It is to change my mind’s subconscious understanding  of love from that given as a reward to that given freely and unconditionally. It is to better appreciate the depth and height and length and width of God’s love for me. And it is to be so consumed by this love that I allow it to spill over into the lives of those around me.